Lean into the Good

What are you stewarding right now?

The summer before my senior year of college: its an exciting but intimidating time. Many questions hang in the air, and it does not take long for my thoughts to spiral.

Am I making enough money this summer?

What would I do if ___ happens?

If God led me ___ then I could do ___.

If I did ___, then God could open these doors…

When am I going to find someone? Will I ever?

What am I actually going to do after I graduate?

All of these thoughts revolved around the future, something that had not even happened yet. I try to apply today’s reality to next month or next year’s, even if the same just does not apply. It's human nature to wonder about whatever is next, and it can absolutely be a good thing. We cannot always sit around and wait for God to tell us to get up and do something. 

However, I tend to jump much too far ahead, trying to guess at what God is doing. I try to plan for things I just can’t plan for. I try to figure it all out, try to make judgments on future events, try to have the perfect line for when the 100th person asks me, “so what are your plans after college.”

I just don’t know for sure. 

And that’s ok. 

Because I am in the now. And God has called me to so many things right here.

He has called me to be a daughter, a friend, a student. An artist, a photographer, and an encouragement to others. He has a purpose for me even now, before I venture out into the “real” world of post-college. You can be in any stage of life to be called by God.

But what happens when there are days that seem to drag on, in the wait, when all I want is the next season? 

Lean into the good

This is something I heard while driving home from Bible study one night. There are so many good things God has given us, and being too focused on the future can blind us to the blessings of today. 

Because the truth is? There are so many things I would miss from right now if I was in a different season.

If I was not at school, I would not get to see my friends every day.

If I wasn’t living at home, I would miss all the time with my parents, watching racing with mom or early morning walks with dad.

If I lived elsewhere, I would miss our beautiful state and all my favorite people that live here.

So, on days when all I want is something else, I slow down and remind myself of the good, right here, right now. God always wants to show us what he is doing now, and allow us to breathe, do what we are called to do, and let him take care of the rest. 

The good right now is worth leaning into. 

“Don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself”

~emma